The big I

I think by the year of 2011, it is an established fact that everyone has problems. Some problems are naturally bigger than others but nevertheless, they are still problems. Problems are conditions which can affect your performance when you are doing something. It is in tough times that you must look through these problems. While it may be easy for some people to see past temporary situations, for other it is not. I have always had problems that I felt I couldn’t cope with. I felt like I could not change or could not do positive things on numerous occasions throughout my life; Fortunately, I have always had some close support.  When the man whom I considered to be my father was murders, it tore me in half. Even though I had only known him for about three years, he did more for me in my lifetime then my biological father. Before I met him, I was known throughout every neighborhood I lived in as a momma’s boy, lazy, and it gave me a sense of rejection. His name was Melvin Edward Brown III. Melvin had known my mother since they were young. The first day I remember meeting him, my mother and I were picking him up from a house in Palo Alto. He had his son who had recently been kicked out by his ignorant mother at 20 months old. As time went on, I invited him to my field trips in fifth grade and was so proud of it. I had never had any male figure, let alone father figure, that felt gratitude in doing simple things like going to field trips with me. My mother got into trouble and he was taking care of me and he stepped up as a man and did it voluntarily. He showed his biological children and I the quality of taking responsibility and what it looks like to be a man.  Only later did I realize, I realized that though all of his growth areas, he is my inspiration.